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sofo ([personal profile] sofo) wrote in [community profile] taxonooc 2014-01-07 10:50 pm (UTC)

~Greetings from Sniffle-Wibble-and-Colds Land!~

I think it's fairly obvious that I'm totally burned out re: Taxon, what with going awol for the past...three months-if-we're-being-nice. Some of it boils down to game-related things, some of it's down to RL stuff (short version: it's been a rough, stressful year on my end, and it isn't looking like 2014 is shaping up any differently). One of the things that I'm finding to be a bit of a struggle is, like Dien mentions in her comment, the repetitiveness of Taxon rp (and in my opinion, that repetitiveness extends to ooc things too).

From a modly perspective, it's rather an enthusiasm-killer to think up what I/we think is an awesome plot or a great big mystery for characters to dig into, and subsequently watch the OOC discussions ramp up expectations on everyone's end...when nothing really happens IC.

We have a few problems that I think are somewhat interlinked: threads grind to a halt, or in some cases seem to go on forever with nothing really happening to bring plot or character growth forward. Threads are repetitive. I don't mean to be harsh, but I have come to a point where even before I get a post up for any of my chars, I know the kinds of comments I'll get - because for one, the playerbase is small, and for twos and threes, you learn how the players play their characters, and everything just sort of meanders along like it always has.

I like meandering. I just...also want to be surprised every once in a while. I think we all do. RP at its best is a dynamic, give-and-take creative experience. At least, I think so. But where do you go from an all-time creative low and consequent stagnant CR?

I don't know. I love Taxon. I love the overarching plot in the works. I love the changes implemented over the past year and a half, I love a great deal of the CR. I'll be honest, I don't love all of it. I don't even get all of it, but most of it I really do love and re-read over and over.

Personally, I need a break from Taxon. I don't know if it will change anything, but it's either that or drop 2/3 of my characters, because Taxon rp has become a chore, and an uphill struggle of one.

Having said that, I don't want to give up my characters or the CR I have with other characters. Of course I don't. I just don't feel like I can play two out of three characters ICly (and even if I do, I don't feel it gets the right response/has the right effect, if that makes sense and doesn't sound ridiculously pretentious of me).

I really don't know, guys. :/ Pass me the cough syrup and some goshdarned sense-making skills.

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