That's a nautical term, ftr, like LAND HO! (which, due to the involvement of land, doesn't really sound nautical - but it totally is) but if you wanted to interpret it as 'this meme is brought to you by Dele, who is also a ho', well, I'm sure I would have difficulty finding anyone around here to strenuously disagree on my behalf. Anyway, I love this shit so, this show: let us get it on the road.
WELCOME TO TAXON'S CR MEME!
Comment to this post listing your characters. Other people will then reply to your comment requesting some epic TL;DR about how your characters feel about theirs. Maybe talk about how you feel, OOCly, about the direction of their interaction or what makes this CR really powerful, tragic, or perhaps just straight up wildly lulzy. Since we p. much always have new folks coming in, if your characters are so new they still need spanking, feel free to use this as an opportunity to ~*discuss potential*~. It will be epic.
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OTHER MEDICAL CHARACTERS, FYI, Trixie will be attempting to round you up at some point. Be warned.
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It's really sad, but Leila actually does use the fact that he is married as sort of a fake roadblock, or a cover for what their main obstacle actually is. She knows there have been moments where she could convince him to leave his wife for her if she'd really been inclined, but if she did that, then he would have to deal with her all the time, and although she is nnooot the kind of person who is going to make a habit out of having relationships with married men, she does feel like neither of them are immune to the clandestine, stolen-moments aspect of the relationship, which can gloss over some real issues. Basically: she thinks that if he got close to her, he would discover that she is (in her mind) irreparably damaged as a person and incapable of being any real good to anyone on a deeply personal leve, HOORAY CHEERFULNESS, have some. She knows she's beautiful and sexually assertive, she knows she's intelligent, and these are things she is downright arrogant about, but her self-worth beyond these somewhat superficial traits is not great. I will bet that this is the one thing she never ever wants Sol to find out about, on pain of death.
Because, you know, if she is wrong, then...she was wrong. About herself. Which means that her efforts to be self-aware were largely in vain, and she hates being wrong.
More than that, she is aware that Sol is the sort of person who encapsulates everything she admired about the Bahari without actually being an apocalypse-causing psychopath; he is pretty dangerous, by no means a tame man, sometimes genuinely kind of a jerk, and he lives life very viscerally. As do the wolves she grew up with, so frequently it's this extremely analytical person seeking out people where she can let go; sometimes being as smart as she is can be like this weight on her shoulders, and Sol alleviates that with bickering or what have you. And even when he has hurt her emotionally, she's always been pretty confident he never would physically, which...is a significant issue.
Which brings me to, again: the issue with them is not that he is married, it is that she doesn't tell him anything. Leila honestly barely thinks of Tonya, partly for her own self-protection, partly because that relationship has to be none of her business for this to work, and partly because she's arrogant enough to believe she could get him to leave her if she really wanted, so please look at that conflicting self-esteem: she's good enough to get a man to leave his wife, but not good enough to be allowed to want the whole of his attention and his heart. They've been together four years and I would bet when her sister died (something she definitely is not grieving healthily, when she lets herself...at all) he could have been like "...you have a sister?" She does not cop to being kinfolk, to her experiences with vampires and the Bahari, to the incident with her father when she was a child, to essentially being pawned off by her family, any of that. Leila does not want to be a person, she wants to be a fantasy, because fantasies don't have obligations, and Sol demands that she be more of that, which is both part of why she is so drawn to him (boomerangs of bad decisions, I'm telling you) and why he is so frustrating.
It's worth noting that while she definitely avoids planning for the future much, she also can't see one without him. Even when she runs away in a fit of emotional flail.
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annnd I think I owe Hermes a tag, but I think Leila will turn out to be pretty fond of him because of some common interests. Which, you know, in his case: more like provinces.
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They will be awesome and MIGHTY together. I can see this already.
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