taxonooc | So.

Hey guys. We were due for an SOTT at the start of this month, but..... I guess the question is, is there a point?

I don't think it's any surprise to anyone that things have slowed to a near-total halt. Threads are basically on life support at this point, or they've gone entirely unanswered (Keri, honey, I'm so sorry, I JUST NOW saw your posts from Glitch and Emma, and the fact that I haven't even checked the main comm in this long is pretty telling in and of itself). We're down to... five players? (Sof, Keri, Jess, Kat, and myself.)

Obviously there are things we need: more investment from your mods, more tags from us all, and above all new players. But we've tried to get those happening for, if we're honest, about a year now. It seems like every time we get up the juice for a fresh start, we end up sputtering to a halt a month or so later.

This holiday season has been extra-stressy for me, which has contributed to my personal fail here, but that's not an excuse, because I really can't promise I'll be any more committed or engaged in the new year, given my track record so far.

If someone has a compelling reason we should try and keep Taxon's lights on, please make the case. I love what this game has been in the past, I love so MUCH of the play I've had here over the years, but at this point I have to admit I'm pretty burned out and I know Sofie is too.

I don't want to write Taxon off, but my enthusiasm is at an all-time low and I don't think I'm alone in that.

Talk at me, folks.

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I think it's fairly obvious that I'm totally burned out re: Taxon, what with going awol for the past...three months-if-we're-being-nice. Some of it boils down to game-related things, some of it's down to RL stuff (short version: it's been a rough, stressful year on my end, and it isn't looking like 2014 is shaping up any differently). One of the things that I'm finding to be a bit of a struggle is, like Dien mentions in her comment, the repetitiveness of Taxon rp (and in my opinion, that repetitiveness extends to ooc things too).

From a modly perspective, it's rather an enthusiasm-killer to think up what I/we think is an awesome plot or a great big mystery for characters to dig into, and subsequently watch the OOC discussions ramp up expectations on everyone's end...when nothing really happens IC.

We have a few problems that I think are somewhat interlinked: threads grind to a halt, or in some cases seem to go on forever with nothing really happening to bring plot or character growth forward. Threads are repetitive. I don't mean to be harsh, but I have come to a point where even before I get a post up for any of my chars, I know the kinds of comments I'll get - because for one, the playerbase is small, and for twos and threes, you learn how the players play their characters, and everything just sort of meanders along like it always has.

I like meandering. I just...also want to be surprised every once in a while. I think we all do. RP at its best is a dynamic, give-and-take creative experience. At least, I think so. But where do you go from an all-time creative low and consequent stagnant CR?

I don't know. I love Taxon. I love the overarching plot in the works. I love the changes implemented over the past year and a half, I love a great deal of the CR. I'll be honest, I don't love all of it. I don't even get all of it, but most of it I really do love and re-read over and over.

Personally, I need a break from Taxon. I don't know if it will change anything, but it's either that or drop 2/3 of my characters, because Taxon rp has become a chore, and an uphill struggle of one.

Having said that, I don't want to give up my characters or the CR I have with other characters. Of course I don't. I just don't feel like I can play two out of three characters ICly (and even if I do, I don't feel it gets the right response/has the right effect, if that makes sense and doesn't sound ridiculously pretentious of me).

I really don't know, guys. :/ Pass me the cough syrup and some goshdarned sense-making skills.

So.

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